DISENCHANTED

Here are some beautiful lyrics from some of my favourite locals bands. Clouds and Friends by POSTBOX and For you, from me by AUBURN’S EPIPHANY. I’ll upload the songs once im smarter when it comes to all these fancy stuff. These lyrics are dedicated to my bestfriends; namely Eriana, Labin, Halimah, Nadzirah,Nadiah and Jumaliyah and a certain person. Cheers to all these years of treasured friendship. Cheers to the broken past and to the silhoutted future. Cheers to love.

Clouds:

I can’t forget, the day i met you; i was hypnotized.

I couldn’t stop looking out my window, i was in a spell.

Why do i have to leave these places, coming down i still want to see you.

Why do i have to leave these places, coming down i still have to see you.

Won’t you leave and come away with me.

I just need you, i just want you please.

What took so long to talk to you; i was so impatient.

i couldn’t help smiling to myself, i am in love with you.

Why do i have to leave these places, coming down i still want to see you.

Why do i have to leave these places, coming down i still have to see you.

Won’t you leave and come away with me.

I just need you, i just want you please.

For you, from me:

Dear angel

Your lipstick taste so sweet

Gentle n tender

There’s no where else I’d rather be

Your heart shines

Brightly in the dark guiding me softly back

Softly back simply back to the start

Each and every time you spin away from me

is like eternity eternity to me

so will you promise me you’ll stay wif me

so happily your memories

so happily your memory

Dear angel

Your lipstick taste so sweet

Gentle n tender

There’s no where else I’d rather be

Your heart shines

Brightly in the dark guiding me softly back

Softly back simply back to the start

Back to the start

Back to the start

You’re perfect

In every single way

So perfect it makes me scared

Makes me scared to lose you from my mind

Im sorry

If I ever hurt you deep

But I love you so much I to see you mean everything to me

Each and every single time you spin away from me

is like eternity eternity to me

so will you promise that you’ll stay wif me

so happily your memories

happily your memory

please wont you stay with me

Friends:

Have you wondered why i looked this way

have i ever made you cry

have i ever made you laugh all day

will you miss me when i die

i’m right here by your side

i will always be with you my friend

Have you been our old photographs

do you remember those times

do you still think we are bestfriends

our friendship never ends.

I’m right here by your side

i will always be with you my friends.

"Even when the moon is it’s brightest, secrets hide everywhere. Then the sun rises and it’s rays creates immense shadows that the day creates more illusion than all the veiled truth of the night."

The masquerade

Walking through life unnoticed

He notices them

Masked behind their masquerade

He notices how faded their hearts were

How no one notices his absence

How insignificant he was

How detached he was from their realm of chaos

How he is slowly dissolving into nothingness

Into the background

Into darkness

He clutched onto the world he longed to let go of

He clutched onto his remaining breath

He cluched onto the tendrils of death

He notices how the thorns of a rose pierce into his heart

How painless it felt

And realised

he’s hollow

he remembered how he hid his heart away from the rest of the world

now he only has his shadow to guide him

he remembered how he traded his soul for solitude

now no one remembers him

walking through life unnoticed

he notices them

masked behind their masquerade

for the first time

he noticed their intricate gowns and masks

for the first time

it will be his last.

  DANIAL IRSYADUDDIN          

You may not consider these words to be beautiful linguistic sentences because i agree that they were not authored by a great mind. But at least they are raw emotions and not just mediocre feelings concocted out of heartache. There is this one person i am curious about. Vou. VOU is YOU in french, but let Vou refer to people that i wish not to name:) Vou shuns people he loves from his life. And now, there are a fair few of his friends that are drifting away from Vou. My advice to Vou is that you should accept people and be accepted. You preach anti-superficiality but as a matter of fact, Vou are the epitome of superficial. I feel a little sad when i hear all these misfortunes and drama in Vou’s life. But when i think of the time Vou has hurt me, the sympathy just melts away.

If you think that someone’s words are valueless; you don’t hold any respect for him or you just choose to disregard him, then whatever words uttered by him aimed at you is worthless to your own perspective. It does not give you a reason to cry or let such critisisms leave a mental scar on you. And i’d also like to highlight that i will not sever any friendship just because i am not friends with a friend of yours. I think that is a pathetic immature reason.

Speak, come on and let it out. Speak, come on and let it out. Speak up, speak out, speak your hearts out. Speak, don’t keep me waiting .Don’t want to guess, not a stress, tell me what you’re thinking.. Keep it real, no big deal. Come on and let it out.

You might have realised that our secret rendezvous almost always begin past midnight. Thus the title.

Tonight, i’d like to share with you a little not-so-dirty secret. I love it when someone gazes into my eyes and whenever they talk to me, they look so deeply into my eyes. Its like, i feel so engaged and mesmerized; like a cobra enticed by it’s charmer. My eyes are a shade lighter than brown but a shade darker than hazel. I wonder how many actually know that if you look closely around the iris, you can see gorges and some sort of lines. Only a handful of people have actually managed to look me in the eye and vice versa without making me too uncomfortable. Look at me in the eye, look at me and let your words flow. Look at me and tell me what you see, have you ever wondered why i look this way? When Vou look into my eyes, i feel like i am suspended in a moment of daze. Everything else is secondary, what matters is that we never break this special connection we share. Looking into Vou’s eyes, takes me away;windswept into an alternative world. Somewhere away from the haunts of screaming alarm clocks and monsters calling our name. An alternative universe an aspiring journalist like me long to create through writing and dreaming.

I’ll share with you something i wrote a couple of months back.

"Take me far, take me faraway. Take me far, take me faraway. Take me to the disco floor, take me far and dance on air. On a night like this i feel like dancing in mid air, i feel like floating in the sky."

Insanity

Trapped in hallowed halls

And widowed minds

Populated by cruel, twisted shadows

Etched on every alley

Hideous thoughts, polluting the air

You know how it feels

To be silenced by death

To be silenced to death

To be silenced in death

Left lonesome for eternity

Alone,

The only company being people like you

Those who only exist in their imagination

We are only hallucinations and blurred figures to those who can’t see

Beyond the mundane

Scarred and sown, violated

Bruised and shaken, we still care

Fragments of memories still intact but

Our sanity forever fractured

Lowered to scribbling words

Beyond comprehension to the troubled minds

Completely foreign to your kind

They, who are filled with twisted thoughts and sick imagination

Here we stand, broken and shattered

Trapped in these webs we’ve weaved

Fortified by insanity

We are alone

With only you and me to hold on to.

Danial Irsyaduddin

1/9/07

Dedicated to the girl who has talent and inspiration

The boy who has aged into a man

The two I can call brother and sister

The bestfriends

The cheating lovers

The one who never fails to lift my spirits

My love, my confidante,my everything

Who lay curious and clueless of my sick and dying world.

Let me make this clear; I am not exactly the blogger material. So don’t expect fantabulous changes everytime you decide to play the detective on my blog.

So this blog shall be where unwhispered thoughts make their way to. Like an adventure, where it’s adventurers would be the ordinarily special people in my life. Now look, we all know i’m a walking contradiction. Have you ever sat down at say coffee bean or starbucks and then survey the vast crowd that approaches. Then you’d make catty remarks on the way people dress or just the way people looked. For that moment you’d forget your inhibitions and your mind just clears because for a second, you are not focusing on yourself but on everyone else. Bliss isn’t it?

What I’m trying to say is that; I am still learning how to look on the brighter side of life (not that being bitchy helps!). Although there is a part of my past i wish not to let go of, i have to. That person is a part of my past and staying there. Often i have to remind myself not to get dragged into my whirlwind of memories. I am not the person who would piece up broken fragments and then pretend that they are whole when they are not. I would rather appreciate the broken fragments for what they are. I mean, if you appreciate love, you should accept and appreciate lost.

To conclude this midnight affair, i say, i am taking my time and i’d learn from my own mistakes. Give me time, for i am young. I’d love to avoid the mistake of hurrying to my destination and not appreciating the beauty of the journey.