Midnight Affair: 15
I remember that look in your eyes
When i told you that this was goodbye
gentle and tender,
there’s nowhere else i’d rather be.
School is starting soon, i’m just going to hope that it will be a whirlwind of chaos, though it already is! to take my mind off matters. Now, home is only a place to stay and sleep. It no longer brings warmth and comfort. Even the simple pleasures of the internet and handphone has been robbed from me. The way she talks to me is like as if i’ve crawled all the way up from the rubbish chute into her baby’s cradle and killed him, replacing his place. It’s as if the only reason i am hanging around is because… i don’t know… moral obligations? Respext the fact that they are my parents, i guess. No, I shan’t bother you with family affairs in the hope that they themselves wouldn’t bother me.
Where’s the sense in that?
What the hell who cares.
You should know, my motto has always been "take your time to grow up". That was in sec1, now, the world is in a rush. There is just something in the past that brings me joy. Something in the songs that we used to listen to and the times we’ve spent together would put a smile on my face. That was 5 years ago. Would i laugh at myself again a couple of years down the road?!
Danial is long gone. He is but a lonesome voice in my head. This person who lives and breathes is Danny. Different and alluring. A much stronger and confident personality with a broader perspecctive. No, that chubby innocent boy has long gone. Now, i’m a tad bit wiser. People change with time, but somehow a part of me will always be the same. Something i can’t put a finger on. Something that reminds me of how Danial used to be. That something gives me the drive to keep on moving.
I’m trying to forget that i’m addicted to you.
