Midnight Affair: 24
Do you remember me, I’m just a shadow now. What would I give, to feel the sunlight on my face. What would I give, to be lost in your embrace.
-Delerium, Fallen.
I’m not the biggest gaming fan, but really, Final Fantasy is the best game I’ve played. It just brings back so much memories. I think of Audric and Miao De. They’re really childhood friends, we shared so much in common and now, we’ve become immensely different. Honestly, I can’t really remember how they look like. It really is sad, when you think of all those adventures we used to have, those video gaming sessions and you-name-it card games. I’ve never told anyone, but that is why I hate video games. I hate how they would bring back almost lost memories. We met, we laughed, we held on tight, and then we said goodbye. I wished they’d know how I feel, but it’s been so long, I wonder if they think of me just like how they’d flit into my mind at the most random times. That’s the beauty of friendship i guess, you never lose it’s fragments no matter how blemished they’ve been.
I won’t make the same mistakes this time. I swear. I’ve forged an awesome friendship with the most unlikely people; if you’ve told me 5 years ago that we would become bestfriends, I would have just freaked out and die. I miss you guys. I really do. I feel that a part of me is lost and troubled. You are a part of me. And I, you. We knew this would one day happen, we knew we would have to board and leave our trains one day. But, I wouldn’t have expected it to be so soon. We said we would be friends forever, we were young and didn’t really understand those words. We’ve always reminisced the bittersweet moments. I can’t wait to see you guys again. I want to remember your faces, so 30 years down the road I would say ‘HI’ if we bumped in Orchard. D’you think that one day, we will decide to bring our children/wives/husbands to cluny park to have a picnic and just so happens all 6 of us happen to be there at the same time. How blissful would that be.
New friends aren’t the same, they never are. They’ll never be replacements. I’m cool with them, but there’s something that just doesn’t seem like you guys. I don’t feel as comfortable as compared to when I’m with you guys. We’re still in the getting-to-know-each-other process. I miss you guys. But we’re always saying, never saying things that matter. No, it’s just that we never say them aloud. We’ve become, what we never wanted to be.
Bunny is cute, and I think I have the freaking mentality of a 5 year old.
Pan said " they don’t deserve you, because they cheated on you."
But i was so in love. No, don’t get me wrong, I’m over that. It’s just that I’ve so many people telling me that I deserve better people and that I deserve to be in happier relationships. I don’t really know, if I would ever meet a partner who would think; there he is, there’s no one else i want, but him. Here we are again, circles never end. How do I find the perfect fit?
This post is dedicated to: Labin, Eriana, Nadzirah, Nadia, Jumalea, Halimah, Alan, Karol, Audric, Miao De, Pan…and bunny.
