DISENCHANTED

Let me tell you how I’m feeling inside. I’m torned up and confused. I want to quit cheer but somehow I still love cheer. Somehow it’s taking up alot of time, somehow eating into my social life. It’s not something that I didn’t see it coming, its just that I didn’t prepare myself for this. I feel guilty letting Lenny down, Citra, Kyra… but truth is, I don’t have much friends in Magnum anyway. But there’s just this part of me that wants to hang on. I skipped training today. I needed some time to think. It’s not just cheer that’s been tugging at my guts. There’s an entire whirlwind of emotions I’ve been trying to hide, to ignore and bury. I’m sorry. I really am. I don’t know how to tell Lenny, or anyone at all. I’m writing it down to express my feelings; the only way I know possible.

je suis desole. je suis illusion.

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