DISENCHANTED

I have moved on.

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ANDDDDD, he’s my classmate. SORRY!

Ok, I know I’m supposed to study. Yes, I shall at 3pm. 

I never realized how stupid I actually look like until I saw these photos.

If I had forever, I would take my time. I would stay away. I would make my mistakes over and over again. I would cry all night. I would give in to my fears. I would fly. I would see the world.

If I had forever, there wouldn’t be a care in the world. I wouldn’t need to fake a smile. I needn’t pretend that I’m listening at all.

If I had forever, I wouldn’t care if I died. I wouldn’t care if you died.

If only I had forever to be buried in sullenness and wallow in my pity.

Can you tell, I’m trying to make myself laugh! Me and my stupidism.

I am facing a mid life crisis!! Ok, too drama. But I really am facing a teen life crisis. I’ve realized that I’ve been dressing like an engineering student to school almost everyday!! (excludes the REB kids lah ok) I pulled off my worst stunt today. PE shorts and t-shirt. OMGAHHHHHHHHH!! So yes, I shall buck up on the wardrobe department of my life. FYI: I had S&W, so it’s legal not to dress up right?!

Lately I’ve been very busy handling my projects. I’m getting in touch with my Dunearn self again. I really want to do well, and I’m really working for it. I’ve just been wondering what my friends are up to nowadays. You know, I think it’s so  amazing that we meet so many different people everyday and only speak to a few of our friends. NO! I am not asking you to exchange contact numbers with some Tom, Dick and Harry. I’m just saying that maybe we should take the initiative to interact with the people around us. OK, I shall make the effort. OMGAHHH, I am such a hypocrite. AHAHAHAH.

Have you ever make friends with someone who was only in your life for maybe a month or so? you know, one of those very short-lived friendship. Have you wondered what’s happening in their lives now?

I think it’s funny that I have friends who went through secondary school with me, and we’re in the same class for all 4 years. Thing is, we’re not best friends. In fact, we don’t really have the chance to talk much. I’m wondering how do I look to them. Must be weird to see how much a person can change in 5 years. I know I did! 

You must be wondering why I have so much time and why am I not studying. That’s because I’ve started revision for my 20% test last week. I’ve been through the tutorial videos a million times. I just hope I won’t blank out tomorrow.

I miss sweating in the mosh pits and slamming everyone around us. I miss our punky hairstyles and dysfunctional wardrobe. Do you remember how we’d go wild and scream at the top of our lungs. I remember us slurping behind random stranger’s ears. I remember having on 10 million sexbands and bracelets on my wrists. I miss sneaking into clubs. I miss New Year. I miss getting my ass drunk and spouting nonsense. I remember getting so drunk I don’t care who was groping my butt. What happened to us? we’re barely legal and we’ve tamed. I thought we swore we wouldn’t conform to the masses. I thought we promised to be different. I think its called ‘growing up’.

I think we grew up.