DISENCHANTED

A minute? thats like a lifetime. Many things live and die in a minute. I don’t have a minute, I’m going to Paris now. 

Edie Sedgwick, Factory Girl.

I’ve always thought that we should all take our time to grow up. I’ve always sought for fun and laughter. I’ve always believed that life is too important to be taken too seriously. Now, I’m starting to realize the world, my world, is in a rush. I don’t wish that I can somehow slow down time. I want to live for the thrill of the moment, I want to savour every drop of bittersweet memory. You’re challenging everything that I ever stood for, you’re challenging everything I ever had faith in. I never understood that until you told me, you had faith in me.

IT’S NOT REALLY BELATED CUZ I CELEBRATED TWICE, WITH ADDED DRAMA SKILLS AND CONVICTION! Anyways, I’m glad that everything turned out well and sweet. Your tear glands have been very active I see. I didn’t realize how much tears such small eyes could hold!! I know you love our prezzies!! I crown you Crumpler Queen! OMG! CQ! I’m suddenly reminded of CATS. -__- Bong’s very nice, I sure hope I didn’t freak her out. AND the meanies made me shake shake my manhood and bon bons in the presence of Bong and Fin. Like shark’s fin like that! WHAHAHAHAHAH!! 

This is my favourite photo. I don’t care what you think!

I watched 007 on Saturday. I wanted to watch Madagascar (where has all the loveee gone too!) but NO, ended up watching a show that gave me 1001 ideas how to murder my project mates. BUT I LOVE IT! So charming and sexy. I want to wear casual pants with polo tee already. *sizzles* Ok, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. SHHTOP IT! (I’m immitating KYRA) Labin can’t dance to save his life. ZOMGGGGGG.

DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THE WORD THAT IS COMING OUT OF MY FREAKING MOUTH?! 

BTW I just found out that my chinese grandma is 80 years old. She just got a hair cut just now. Julie and I were on the bed talking, bitching, singing thai songs, watching youtube the whole day.

I want to watch Factory Girl now. And I’ll be on hardcore studying/project/work-out/budget/proper eating habits mode.

This is the standard I’m setting, ok bye.

Daddy and mummy are so happy that i stayed home today. They’re so happy that I’m going to be home more often now. I guess I’m very/too attached to my parents. I told mummy that I want to be a stewardess, she told me to go ahead “do what you want to”. I know I probably can’t because I have to look after my parents more in time to come. We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.

OH JULIE! I finally met up with my beloved sister. YAYE! But well, girl, I hope things get better for you. I can’t believe she left you just like that. I’ve always seen her as part of our family. It breaks my heart to see you guys like this. We have plenty of time to catch up with each other now. I’m sorry if I’ve been neglecting you for the past few months.  

ERIANA AND LABIN, I AM CRASHING RP THIS TUESDAY TO LOOK FOR YOUR HAIRY ASSES!!

PS,BEE-EFF-EFF’S

Please don’t be a part of my past. Now that there’s distance between us, I’ve realized that you’re the best. Thanks for the best times of my lives. Will you remember my name? I hope to hear from you soon. 

I didn’t want to be rude, but your drove me to the wall. Firstly, you should know about my heritage. I am part Chinese, Peranakan Malay, Australian and Scottish. So, HOW CAN YOU CALL ME BLACK?!?! Have you ever seen a Nigger? or do you need a mirror. We know we always have a spot in the lime light, but you’ve got no right to compare us to spots!! 

You can take 10 million photographs but it doesn’t change the fact that someone fucked up. Everything looks so perfect from faraway, but my thoughts rearrange. The Magnum Experience has been a great one. But there’s something else that’s worth experiencing. It’s called life. Heard of it? 

Do you know what normal teenagers do during their free time? Gyeah, sure, they work out here and there. But they get to hang out with their cliques. They chill in town or somewhere nice talking and just… talking. They catch up with the lives of their best friends. They have dinner at home with their parents. Stuff like that. 

This is a decision that I’ve made. It’s got nothing to do with the rest of you. I expected “I respect your decision” is that too much to ask? am I reaching out for the impossible? didn’t think so. Of course this does not refer to everyone. Thanks to Citra, for always being there. For guiding me along rocky roads. Thanks Pan, for the fun, laughter, love and joy. Thanks Karenn, Kyra, Denise, Esther for hanging out and being yourselves. Magnum has reunited me with Fuzzy, and I’m greatful for that. Evan, from Dunearn to Ngee ann, from Cheetah to Magnum. Thank you so much. Vincent and Andrew, I’m sorry our package had to be disbanded. You guys have so much potential and I’m proud to have been able to work with you guys. I’ll remember what we talked about at the Loft. I’ll keep it shush. Thank you Lenny. For everything. 

I guess, I don’t want to involve myself with anything like this anymore. I’m over it. I am happy, I thought you guys would be happy for me too. I realized, I can’t expect that from everybody. I have no right to expect anything from anyone.

Are you happy with the changes?

Ecstatic

There’s nothing to feel sorry about. 

I feel like I’ve neglected all the significant people in my life for something I no longer pour my heart and soul into.

I’m making a decision, and I know my heart is in the right place.

If I choose to leave, I’ll leave and never come back. Know that I left because I want to leave.

My happiness is at stake. I guess I’ve said all there is to say.

I’M SO HAPPY!!!

deepavali at Yogi beb

LISTENNNNNN! to the voice within!

Just so we won’t forget that we’re a wonderfool bunch of cool and fun people. Now… I’ve got project to rush.

I hate this part right… here.

I almost always never censor my mouth. I almost always say things I don’t mean. I almost always end up hurting someone I don’t intend to. I’m almost always unpredictable. The world is just another photoshopped lie.

Live with it. I almost always say what i think.